Flame Shift #70 stayed quiet, gentle and peaceful, at least up to the point where I had to knock off two hours early to go to a gig. Ugh. Really need to be more vigilant with those two calendars in 2014.
My on again off again gig at the Shala continues to surprise me. When it gets good, something invariably goes wrong, personnel-wise. Then just when things feel ready to break, we have a great gig and things move forward. That is where I found myself tonight.
Ricardo was present, and really pleasant to be around. The tunes had moxie. Another of the local gang, Ana, came up to sing up two tunes. BA and Mark were in the audience, among a crowd of about 20. Everyone seemed to get a lot out of the show.
The biggest surprise, and unquestioned highlight, though, was sitting for two hours after the gig and reconnecting with my old friend Ivy, the studio owner. Longtime readers may remember that her and I were quite close a few years ago, before I came out.
That event, though, seemed to put some distance between us, to my great sadness. I never had confirmation, and even now she's not standing up and outright saying that I made her uncomfortable. More that she was going through some stuff at the same time and didn't quite know how to deal with me changing.
Sitting there tonight, opening back up, trusting each other again, it felt like picking up where we left off, as if no time had passed, even though we're both at very different places in our lives. We got rid of ambiguities, which is so important to me these days, and I honestly feel like our friendship is back on track, maybe better even than it was.
What an amazing thing! What a strange and wonderful life!
Good night.
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